JAbbott

Doin Better ?.?!?

Over the last couple months I have undergone a real struggle with my current choice of work. The last month has been extremely frusterating and many days I’ve felt as though I’m barely hangin in there, that I might snap or quit at anytime. Just feeling that I’ve had enough and somethings gotta change quickly.

This last week I’ve been doing much better. Some pressure I was under alleviated and I think that helped more than I thought it would. I’ve still determined that I don’t want a long term career with my current company, which means a change, but I have also found that I can make it through the day without feeling like I might not make it.

What to do with this: Why? Is this good? Ok? Bad? I don’t know! I glad I’m not depressed about work like I was for a while but it also makes it easier for me to become complacent. Change is hard! I have checked out some other conventional options; as well as, some greater visionary options that have been on me for a long time. I want to stay on track with what’s gonna be best for the long term future and but? I dunno, Pray for me. Help me to stay on track, to not be scared, to not settle but not be anxious either.

I am my own worst enemy, God help me.